it’s been about a year since my life was turned upside down. i won’t lie and say it was easy, but i feel totally comfortable now saying i am better for it.
i examined what things really meant to me. i figured out what my definitions of love, success, abundance and happiness are…and my new definitions aren’t really close to what i would’ve said a year ago. sometimes, your ass has to be kicked a little to wake up, shake off the ego trip and get down to the nittygritty. i wouldn’t want to repeat the last year, no way, but i believe it was necessary and important. i am calmer, happier and more positive as a result of all this, perhaps even more loving and compassionate, too.
i am aware of my own role in how things imploded. while hindsight shows me the error of some of my choices, i know in the moment, i was doing my best with what i knew how to do. forgiving myself over the last year has been equally as important as forgiving others.
today, i am at peace as i look back on the messes and the scars, and i feel happy in the present…and i look ahead with hope.