As the job change draws closer, I am FREAKING THE HELL OUT!
I am not a job hopper, so the change makes me nervous.
What if I don’t like it?
What if they don’t like me?
My back is out right now, has been in spasms for days…some of that can be attributed to flying in cheap seats, unable to move, for business meetings last week. Some of it can also be attributed to fear of the unknown. I’m trying to be present and roll with it, but I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t nervous or afraid. I totally am. I am a bit of a wreck right now.
What’s so weird to me is that I’m telling people I’m a wreck, a total hot mess, and I’m getting “lol” type of responses. Seriously? Like I’m hanging on by my fingernails and that merits “lol?”
This will pass, sure, as all awkward times do, but the ride is a rough one for me.