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The theme of intuition has come up a lot lately for me in the last few days, so I thought I’d blog just a little bit about it.

I think everyone has intuition, instinct, gut feelings that give you a feel on a situation, give you some insight into something.  I think, though, most of us choose to ignore that little voice, and I think when you ignore the feeling or the vibe or whatever the hell you want to call it, it happens less and less.

I don’t always follow my intuition…and usually when I don’t, I end up wishing I had! I wind up with a case of the shoulda woulda couldas—oh man, I shoulda done that, I wish I woulda said that, I coulda been so happy.  Yep. I try to listen.  Sometimes I’m slow to listen, like when it took me nearly a decade to act on something that my gut feeling tried to guide me on once upon a time–I’m stubborn, ya know, and sometimes instinct goes against logic and reason, and I’m ever so fond of logic and reason.  Oh, but sometimes, out of left field, you just know, you just know something with the certainty of every freakin’ fiber of your being, and that is intuition, my friends.

When I talk about intuition or instinct, I’m not even talking any new-agey woowoo channeling the voice of an ancient shaman nonsense, just that basic gut feeling you get when you meet someone new or go somewhere you’ve never been before…is this a nice person or a mean person kind of feeling? Is this a safe place or should I carry a machete?

Listen to yourself.  You know best, you really do.  If the nagging feeling in the core of your being is trying to guide you, hear it at least for today and see where it takes you!

…when I miss the window of sleep…I felt sleepy for maybe 10 minutes about three hours ago…and then it was gone.  So I’m up and I’m typing and thinking maybe a bubble bath will do the trick. 

For those not in the know about my sleep problems, sleep comes and goes for me.  Sometimes, I’ll sleep a few nights in a row with no problem and that is just freakin’ glorious and I feel so good…or I’ll go night after night like I have of late with trouble falling asleep, then once I finally hit slumberland, I have trouble staying asleep, sleeping in 45 minute blocks before waking up to thinkthinkthink and stare at the ceiling before I might maybe doze off a little bit for 45 minutes or so and then the next day I can still sort of function but my temper get super short and my already short attention span becomes non-existent.  Yeah yeah, I know there are drugs to help me sleep, but I’m wary and leary of the side effects, I’m not ready to do that yet. 

…that i’m down with, and we’ve been working hard toward something.  damn, i hope it happens for us, i want it.  i want it for each one of us as badly as i want it for myself.  it’s kind of driving me up the wall, the not knowing…but as in all things, it is what it is.  everything’s zen.