…i find out i have none at all. i have no clue.
people are cruel and complicated.
i think i blogged earlier in the week that i was waiting for a word, and i got words plural, more than i wanted to receive, none of them good. not one. it’s not that i had a lot to lose in this venture (well, not too much time lost, but other things lost, yes), but i trusted. i trusted. really, i think i was already bitten once in the last week by this person, you ‘d think i wouldn’t offer my hand again in kindness…but no, apparently, i didn’t learn well the first time, didn’t catch on.
no, i really don’t want to talk specifically about it to anyone, but i know that i didn’t deserve this blow. maybe should’ve seen it coming, but i didn’t deserve it.