So I did everything Saturday that I said I would do (drove fast, got ink, rocked to the metal at the strip club) and woke up Sunday morning back to my normal rude, irritable self. Grumbly, grouchy Kat was back!
Went to the roller derby that night and things were all good, whooping and hollering and smacking my brother…and then! And then! How do I tell you? How do I say it? On the way out, I hugged someone! No no, they didn’t go in for the hug first, I offered to hug them first! OH MY GOD WHAT’S HAPPENING TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!???????
And then today, before I even realized what I was doing, I sent out this nicey nice sincere heartfelt email to someone else offering to be, well, nice to them! NICE?! SINCERE?! HEARTFELT? WHAT?!
Since I am having issues keeping my normal wall up, the barrier between me and the universe, I need to actually build a real one. I am going to build a giant brick wall to prevent me from hugging people or sharing niceynice thoughts and that way the jackals of humanity can’t dine on my vulnerable soul. Sounds like a perfectly rational solution to me.