Wow. Today was much better than yesterday. Actually, by late last night, all was better in the world, most everything back in balance and harmony.
But yesterday was rough…I guess it was rough because it can be tough to really feel anything, like get down in the feeling and wallow, immerse yourself in the moment. And it was very necessary to go that deep, and by midnight, things were better.
We spend our days skimming the surface, don’t we? We are never truly happy–“oh, I’m happy, sure, but I’d be happier if…” We never let ourselves be lost in love–“he’s super but I’d like him more if…” Hell, we never even really let ourselves be sad–“my friend of 20 years just died, but I need to get back to work…” In hindsight, I think yesterday was a good day of sorts in getting real, feeling, being.
All is well. Really.
I am not having any post-Warren Wilson College acid flashbacks, I’m not going all hippie dippy trippy on you, friends, just trying to share what I know to be true from experience in the Things That Matter (the capital letters in that phrase aren’t mine, I’m borrowing them from a friend). Step away from your computer and feel something, feel anything, all the way through to your soul. It’s time we stop skimming the surface.
i feel tired. does that count?