Today I took a step in the right direction, the forward direction, but it still didn’t feel good. It actually felt pretty sickening and I’ve been more than a little bummed about it all day. I worry too much about others; I care too damn much. I probably care more about others than they even care about themselves, and I know in this case, I’m caring far more about someone else’s welfare than they are about mine…but it didn’t make the step any easier.
But that’s what I must do, what we all must do, one foot in front of the other, one step at a time. I wanted all this to be different. This is not the planned path, because I sure as hell wouldn’t plan to drag my bleeding soul across gravel, salt and fire for weeks on end, and that’s what I’ve been living. Good things are coming, they have to be.