I’ve been trying harddddddddddddddddddddddddd (HARD!) to extend kindness and love where I can. I’ve been trying hard to muster forgiveness. All this effort is for my own sanity, and because I also believe love is what we’re here for, what we’re here to do at the most fundamental level of our existence.
Here’s a hard truth: just because I forgive, it doesn’t mean the other person forgives me; just because I am giving love doesn’t mean they will meet me halfway. THAT SUCKS! In a perfect world, when we try to meet others halfway, they are willing to meet us there. In this world, the world we’re in now, hugs are refused and mannerisms are cool, even cold…brrrrrrrrrrrr. I’ve tried hard with this one person in particular and there’s nearly a negative return on investment, like tossing my feelings into the Grand Canyon.
But, y’know, fuck it. I’m not letting you rain on my love parade. If you want to join in, you know how to find me any ol’ time, but damn, brrrrr. I’m putting on my coziest gear and marching onward. I’ll still answer when you call if you’re ready to behave like a decent person, but for now, I’m putting up my umbrella and keeping the love parade moving.