tomorrow i’m not going to be well-liked, i’m not going to win any friends over tomorrow…and i know the word will spread like wildfire that i’m a bitch and no one can ever meet my standards and i’m cold-hearted…
…but that’s not the case. i have anguished over this for months, for the better part of this year i’ve worried over it. i’ve tried every reasonable alternative. i have lost sleep, had headaches, been sick to my stomach…but no one gets to know much about that. everyone goes for surface knowledge, appearances, rumors.
i tried. i really, really did.
huh? what’s going down?