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I should be asleep

But instead I’m doing that thing where I obsess over song lyrics.

“All is lost again
But I’m not giving in
I will not bow
I will not break
I will shut the world away
I will not fall
I will not fade
I will take your breath away”

That’s some Breaking Benjamin.

It’s a new moon and a good time to reset my focus. I’m taking risks, and y’know, being a damn idiot…but carpe diem.

If I don’t get what I want, it will never, ever be for lack of trying. I will say the words, try a different route, rip it apart to rebuild anew…but I will try. I will not collect dust…I will take your breath away.


Current mood

Current mood…and a side note, the music for American Horror Story: Hotel was genius…GENIUS.


I Also Think in Songs, By the Way

In the last post, I mentioned I dream in songs. I also frequently think in songs. Sitting here, gazing out the window, and boom, another song, clear as day:
“Got to get you out of my mind,
But I can’t escape from the feeling.
As I try to leave the memory behind
Without you, what’s left to believe in?

And I wonder
Do you ever feel the same?
In whispering darkness
Do you ever hear my name?”

This video is haunting, beautiful, strange…very “American Horror Story” long before there was such a thing.


Well, that was transparent as hell

I dream in songs all the time…like, all the time. Sometimes, the songs don’t make any sense at all to me when I wake, and sometimes they are super obvious. Last night, it was Duran Duran’s “Is There Anyone Out There,” one of my favorite songs from their first albums. I was singing in an empty stairwell at night in the rain:

“I never found out what made you leave.
And now the day’s over, just an hour to go.
Well I tried to phone last night but you never answered…
Just left me ringing on the line.”

Of course, in my dreams, I can carry a tune. What a transparent tune for all that’s been on my mind. I sang the whole song in my dream in an echoing stairwell, walked down a dark sidewalk alone in the rain, then woke up.




Breaking Benjamin

In between my three jobs, I did manage to go see Breaking Benjamin’s acoustic show with one of my homeboys. AWESOME awesome awesome.
They sounded great! Loved their cover of “Would.”
Someone’s pretty good video from The Orange Peel of “So Cold:”

Next show: Slayer!


Remember This Movie?

Remember “Rumble Fish?” Matt Dillon and Mickey Rourke, even a little Nicolas Cage.  Black and white.  Cool.

“There’ll be a time when I won’t remember what I was afraid of.”



love this

I am, I myself alone…realize I never need to use no one. Money, power, holy roads: freedom puts my faith in none of the above.



I’m dangerous, passionate.


I Send a Message

I tell so much here, and at the same time, I tell nothing at all, really.  It’s important to only bleed so much on the keyboard, to not give away all my thoughts to anyone that happens on this page.

But today, I send a gigantic message and hope it gets through. Damn it, I am trying. Cut me some slack.

hotel am kastell

And here’s a song about sending a message…it’s INXS recorded in Rotterdam: