You ever think back on a conversation and wonder why you didn’t have the snappy comeback you needed or why you bit your tongue instead of speaking?
Here are some things that were said to me in 2014, and alas, what I didn’t say in return in the last twelve months.
“I don’t want to hurt you more than I already have.”
Easypeasy, jackass. Stop being a dick. It’s so simple. Stop being a dick. That’s all. Be a decent human. Give love and receive love without being a dick. If it seems shady, mean, or rude, don’t do it.
“You have intimacy issues.”
No, actually, I have standards against being “intimate” with liars and con artists. I am not for sale.
“I don’t understand how you can turn your back on me.”
I don’t understand how you can treat people you allegedly care about so badly and think they’ll sign up for more. What you call turning my back, I call self respect.
Would speaking up have made any difference? Probably not. It’s not my job to reassemble the broken people that come into my life, but it is my job to honor and respect myself.